the year ender.

all i can say is that the year 2009 just whizzed by me so fast i could hardly recall anything significant at all. so for my year ender post i’d just like to make a list of everything that i am thankful for for the year that was 2009:

1.) my babies

throughout all the ups and downs of this year, one thing remained constant – the unconditional love that my precious baby doggies give me. its hard to explain to non-dog loving people just how rewarding and fulfilling it is to have these little furry things cuddle up warmly to you and look at you with innocent eyes. at the end of an awful day, a nice cuddle session with my baby loves is enough to make me want to move on. thank you Kimi, Peanut, Butter, Choco, Caramel, Hiro, Chiqui & Barney. i love you babies to the moon and back.

my boy Choco

2.) dich

she’s been my shock absorber all through out the craziness of 2009. i have no words to explain how thankful i am that i have a sister. sometimes she irritates the heck out of me but i seriously can’t imagine life without someone who will just listen to you rant and rave about the things you go through. i don’t have a perfect family but as long as dich is around then guess i’ll be ok.

me and the other MJ in my life

3.) friendships

when it comes to friends, i really think i’m one of the luckiest ones out here. once in a while you need to take a break from work for the occasional dinner, singing spree, coffee get-togethers, travels, heart to heart talks, and whatnot. i’m grateful to have people around me who i can count on to be my official cheerer uppers. life ain’t always grand but with friends like mine i know i can bear it all. so thank you friendships!

friends from way way back plus ilene

the highlight of the year - karen's wedding!

my guy friends from the camera club

4.) BBook & BBooth

i am thankful that the business is slowly but surely growing. i am thankful for the employees who work their hardest to book orders and to complete orders. although i wouldn’t really consider these as my OWN businesses, i am still thankful to be a part of it. there are days i wish i was in a different industry altogether. there are days when i’d get so frustrated i’d wish i was an employee so that i don’t have to worry about too many things. but these frustrations, i know, are just part and parcel of life. BBook and BBooth, especially the slave driver owner other wise known as my brother, has made me shed tears of anger, sadness, and despair so many times this year but at the same time, it has made me stronger too. these lessons i’m going to take as i enter the new year and hopefully i will become a better person because of that.

5.) Michael Jackson

of course i wouldn’t let this post end without anything on Michael. i saved the best for last i truly am grateful for having discovered Michael’s music even if it happened after he passed. better late than never right? hehe it’s been more than 6 months since i started listening to his songs and discovering the person that Michael is (no, i don’t want to use the past tense) and i can still say that nothing gives me more happiness. his voice soothes my nerves when i’m anxious, his smile makes me forget all my troubles, his life story inspires me to move forward with my own despite the frustrations i’m going through. i always tell myself if Michael was strong enough to face all the allegations of child molestation, to be brave despite of what the media makes up about him, to be courageous in the face of all his haters, then i guess i can conquer all my problems too. i know i love Michael and he will live forever in my heart.

i think this is from post secret. exactly what i feel about Michael

so there… i think that’s about it. today, on the first day of the new decade, i’d like to end this post by also writing a year-starter entry. some things i’m looking forward to in 2010:

1.) BBabies

- i don’t like to elaborate on this yet since everything’s still all up in the air for now. but yeah.. something new and exciting is brewing so watch out for that

2.) new skills

- i’d really like to learn how to cook. at least whatever happens to me in the future i’m assured that i know how to turn on the gas stove or whatever and feed myself.

3.) new plans for the future

- i used to tell myself that i’d be ok not having real kids of my own ( i say real because now i believe i do have babies already even if they are furry and have 4 legs). but lately i find myself softening up to the thought of starting a family of my own. dich and i used to plan that if we end up not getting married at all we will have each other plus our baby doggies. i guess that will be my back up plan for now. i’m still hoping that i will find the right guy for me who’ll love and respect me and who i will love and respect in return. we’ll build a family of our own and i will try my hardest to raise the kids to become good people. i will not be afraid of karma! hahaha! :p oh, and the first baby boy’s name should be Michael Joseph. darn. i’ll be 26 years old in 24 days. time is ticking!

4.) to be in better shape

- i know, i know, i say this EVERY single new year. but this 2010 i really think i can lose weight already. i’ve lost the first 10 lbs when i started boxing again middle of 2009. so hopefully this year i will shed the next 40 lbs and reach my ideal weight by the time Shelly or Emiat gets married. i don’t want to be the only fat person in the picture anymore. promise!!!

5.) to work harder

- this year i plan to start a new routine:

8:00am – 10:00am –  get up, eat breakfast, shower, dress up, blow dry hair, put on make up then leave the house.

10:00am to 12:00nn – rounds at the shops both in ayala and sm

12:00nn to 1:00pm – eat a proper lunch.

1:00pm to 6:00pm – office work

6:00 to 6:30 – quickie dinner

6:30 to 10:00pm – gym

10:00pm to 12mn – date with Michael on my lappy or DVD player:)

12mn to 8:00am –  SLEEP!!! no more sleeping at 3:00am!!!

weekends will be for breaks from this routine so i can skip the gym, go out for dinner with friends or maybe hopefully go out on a date. wahahah! :p i hope i can keep this up!

here’s to wishing everyone a great new decade! happy 2010, people!

my Michael Christmas.

i know. those very few of you who read this blog are going “what?? another Michael Jackson post?” well, sorry but this is how i am when i’m in love and when i’m in my ultimate fan girl mode.

i’ve given my Christmas gift for my friends a lot of thought months before the holiday season started. this is what each of the people near and dear to me got, a compilation DVD entitled My Michael: A Compilation of MG’s Favorite Michael Jackson Songs. I chose this picture for the cover because it’s one of my super duper favorite Michael photo plus it fits the square layout perfectly. At the back i wrote a special message explaining my gift. this is what it said:

Dear friend,

Merry Christmas! This year I’m giving you the gift of Michael Jackson’s music. Here’s a DVD containing Michael’s biggest hits, some songs which are not so popular but are very close to my heart, plus 3 videos which you can view on your computer. Ever since I discovered Michael Jackson’s music I have never been more inspired. He has made me so happy these past months and I just want to share that happiness with you. I hope you’ll enjoy listening to his songs and watching the videos.

Have a blessed Christmas and a Joyous New Year!

Love, MG

and this is how it looks like:

the gift of Michael Jackson’s music

i really hope all my friends love my gift i’m just doing my part in celebrating Michael Jackson’s music. long live the King of Pop!

Dich gave me Michael’s Dancing The Dream which i already blogged about days ago. For a long time, that was the book i’ve been longing to have in order to complete my collection. here’s an updated version of my Michael Jackson books and magazines collection.

a whole lotta' MJ lovin'!

me and my dormies got together yesterday and Anya and Borbs gave me these 2 gorgeous MJ Fan shirts

thank you Anya!

thank you Borbies!

so now i just have to add them to my ever growing MJ Fan shirt collection. now i officially have 7! weeeeeee!

my MJ Fan shirt collection

as i previously mentioned in my entry a few days back, i ordered The Official Michael Jackson Opus as a Christmas and birthday gift for myself. today i finally got to touch, feel, hold, and scan through the book via my fellow MJ fan Aledel. Her Opus arrived today and we immediately set up an MJ session here at home. it really helps that she’s my neighbor too! haha! we’ve been waiting for this moment to arrive for months now so you can just imagine how excited we were. the Opus is so overwhelmingly HUGE and super HEAVY. I had to pick up Del from her house one street away from mine for the simple fact that she cannot possibly carry it by herself. when i opened it i simply had no words to describe how amazingly beautiful it is. *sigh* i’ll let the pictures do the talking

cover art by Nate Giorgio

*swoon*

here’s me and Aledel with our favorite series of photos from the Opus. Michael looks oh so adorable here as Charlie Chaplin

me and my MJ soulmate Aledel

i just cannot wait for my own Opus to arrive! my cousin in LA sent it via standard mail so i’ll have to wait an entire month. darn. sige lang.. its ok, it might arrive in time for my birthday. yayness!

lastly, i had these 2 made at BB for myself: a photo bracelet containing 6 of my favorite MJ pics and a photo tumbler with pictures of Michael’s album covers (layout courtesy of Aledel). i hardly have anything done from BB at all. it’s just now that i became an MJ fan i realized i can make all kinds of memorabilia myself. haha!

my MJ Photo Bracelet

my MJ Photo Tumbler

oh, and can i just add these 2 bookmarks? i had them made last month still at BB just so that i have Michael with me when i’m reading books. hehe.. i wish i knew how to make better layouts. these were the best i could do.

my MJ bookmarks

so this is it for now. should i have extra moolah i still plan on giving myself more Michael gifts. haha!

hope ya’ll had a Merry Michael Christmas and have a Happy Michael New Year!

another christmas greeting.

here’s a photo of me and the girls from last night’s dinner at Marco Polo Hotel. added the text via Photoshop, uploaded on Facebook, and tagged everyone I wanted to greet with it (mostly high school classmates). don’t we all look lovely on this pic? heehee!

will post pictures of this Christmas’ get-togethers soon

The Last Tear.

i just finished reading Michael Jackson’s book Dancing The Dream and this particular reflection just seemed so fitting to my current situation.

The Last Tear

by Michael Jackson

Your words stabbed my heart, and I cried tears of pain. “Get out!” I shouted. “These are the last tears I’ll ever cry for you.” So you left.

I waited hours, but you didn’t return. That night by myself I cried tears of frustration.

I waited weeks, but you had nothing to say. Thinking of your voice, I cried tears of loneliness.

I waited months, but you left no sign for me. In the depths of my heart, I cried tears of despair.

How strange that all these tears could not wash away the hurt! Then one thought of love pierced my bitterness. I remembered you in the sunlight, with a smile as sweet as May wine. A tear of gratitude started to fall, and miraculously, you were back. Soft fingers touched my cheek, and you bent over for a kiss.

“Why have you come?” I whispered.

“To wipe away your last tear,” you replied. “It was the one you saved for me.”

christmas.

for what it’s worth, christmas still is one of those times of the year we should just forget about squabbles and drama and just celebrate. so to everyone who has been there for me (you know who you are), thank you. lately life hasn’t been a walk in the park but knowing that there are a handful of you who care for me sincerely is enough to make me want to move forward. here’s a nice little greeting from me and my baby loves Peanut & Butter.

the one good thing about this Christmas is the presence of my beloved Michael in my life. today it’s been 6 months since he passed but i still feel so strongly for him and i love him more than ever. i’m really bordering on delusional here but i don’t care cuz Michael makes me so happy. hehehe. naturally my only wish for this Christmas (materially speaking) are MJ-related stuff. Dich got me Michael’s book called Dancing The Dream – a collection of his poems and essays and the only other book that he wrote himself aside from Moonwalk which is his official autobiography. Actually i just sort of forced Dich to get it for me. haha! she wants me to stop being so obsessed but since she couldn’t afford to get me the original gift she wanted to give me (tickets to Lea Salonga’s concert this coming January), i practically begged her to just get me Dancing The Dream instead. so yay! thank you mar! here it is with matching wrapper and ribbon.

and as a gift to myself (christmas & birthday combined), i got THE ULTIMATE Michael Jackson memorabilia that any die hard fan should have – The Michael Jackson Opus. i also think that so far, this is one of the most expensive things i ever bought for myself with my own hard earned money. it cost me about 12 freakin’ grand. damn. laham ang wosh! but it’s so worth it. the MJ Opus is 13 by 18 inches big and weighs 26 lbs plus it comes with a single white glove. amazing! Right now my Opus is still somewhere in Los Angeles making it’s way to my doorstep. it should get here by my birthday next month. yaaaaaaaaaay!!! E-X-C-I-T-E-D!

this year my christmas list of gifts to give grew significantly. proudly presenting pictures of my god kids. i now have 4! 2 boys and 2 girls

my first god kid, Linux is now 1 year and a half and is the son of my former office mate from when i was working at a call center. i’m going to see him tomorrow with his mommy Lady. yay! next is Akeisha, the daughter of BB’s supervisor Fe. she’s such a sweet heart! then we have baby Niño, the son of Clem & Bernard, my good friends from the camera club. i just love this precious little guy! and lastly, there’s baby Angeli, the daughter of my second cousin Achie Bless and her husband Chi Tiu Marlon. she’s only 1 month old yet i just know she’s going to grow up to be a darling.

i have four more holiday get-togethers to look forward to: tomorrow i’m having dinner buffet at Marco Polo with Anya, Meling, Mausy, Lauren & Ilene, then sunday it’s dinner buffet with Karen and the rest of the girls with their plus ones, then monday it’s dinner and singing with the dormies then tuesday it’s dinner with the employees. the holidays is always synonymous to weight gain. ugh. oh well.. can’t wait to catch up with the friendships!

i spent Christmas day just lounging around at home playing with my baby doggies and watching DVDs with Dich. happy to know i survived the holidays in one piece. sometimes some plastic-an is required just to get through this time of the year. but everything’s good now, not great, but just good. good enough to know that i can move forward and i AM indeed moving forward.

hope ya’ll had a merry christmas! here’s hoping for better days in the year 2010!

Maybe Tomorrow.

i am so in love with this Jackson 5 song. the lyrics are so heartfelt and Michael’s voice here is so sweet and angelic. i always wonder how he can sing with so much passion and strength at a time when he hardly knew anything about love and relationships. MJ is simply magic. take a listen to the song, close your eyes and savor MJ’s lovely voice, and pay close attention to the lyrics.

I don’t know how many stars there are
Up in the heavenly sky

I only know my heaven is here on earth
Each time you look into my eyes
The way.. you do baby

Thank you, thank you baby

My beautiful bird you have flown away
I held you to tight, I can see

You’re all I need to get by
No one else can make me cry
The way you do, baby

You are the book that I read each day
You are the song That I sing
Gonna sing it to you

You are the four seasons of my life
But maybe tomorrow, you’ll change your mind, girl
Maybe tomorrow, you’ll come back to my arms, girl

(Maybe she won’t)

Maybe you’re all I need to get by
No one else can make me cry
The way you do, baby

You are the book that I read each day
You are the song That I sing
Gonna sing it to you

You are the four seasons of my life
But maybe tomorrow, you’ll change your mind, girl
Maybe tomorrow, you’ll come back to my arms, girl

little precious Michael

i love you, Michael. thank you for filling my life with such wonderful music.

you are the song that i sing rest in peace, angel.